that hour i first believed.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

a walk to remember.

At one time in your life,
the one you have loved the most will unexpectedly turn out to be,
the greatest stranger you have ever met.

*YAWNS* i am still sleepy,maybe after this i go back to sleep! heh.
today is my off day but i got a lot to do since my dear mother is out!
i have to clean the house,sleep & eat & eat. hahahaha! *ROFL*
but later in the afternoon,have to fetch the baby boy from school.
sigh sigh.

work is hell,as usual. not enough staffs,run here & there. bleargh.
stocks always & forever comes in like crazy,never ending. sheesh!
it's going to be august soon,so sad. july is ending!! JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
time always pass us by so fast,very very fast huh? )):

and so yesterday was......

HAPPY 3RD,BABE!
the day has finally come,huh? it's the 14th of july,some time,this day,
3 years ago,i fell in love with you & i haven't regretted it since then. (:
it's been 3 years hell of a ride,don't you think so baby? & we made it through!
i'm glad that even after 3 years,i still find myself deeply in love with you.
thank you,for still loving me all these while.

yesterday,to celebrate,the boy and i went to catch ICE AGE 3,3D!!!!! (:
it's very hilarious!! you all should go & catch it.. 5/5 popcorn stars!
throughout the whole show,you guys would be laughing & laughing...
HAHA! i feel like watching it again & again. cannot wait for HARRY POTTER!
SATURDAY,SATURDAY! <3

The beautiful thing about memories is that they are yours,
whether they are good, bad or indifferent.. they belong to you.
& no matter where life takes you, your memories tie you to where you've been.

(11:47 AM)

Sunday, July 12, 2009

in order.

You'll never know how strong you are,
until being strong is the only choice you have.

it's SUNDAY!!!!! my final day of weekend rest & it's back to hell! sheesh.
i wonder how's the state of the store,right now eh? hmmmmmm! messy,confirm!
but right now,my sunday is all i want to think about.. my sunday!!
just rest,watch tv.. read books. laze around & just exercise a bit?! HAAAAAA!
so much for exercise? the boy stuffed food inside my mouth!! LOL!

half of the day today was spent with the boy,celebrating our advance ann! (:
i bought for him his pressie & presented to him.. the look on his face,PRICELESS!
if you're wondering what? as usual,it's his graphic novels... *ROLLS EYES*
a stack of spiderman graphic novels collection,just for him. hehh.
it will only take him,1 day to finish all... that if he's not working! (:

Sometimes we take for granted the people
in our lives that mean so much.
& when we finally realize that, it can be too late
Take advantage of every minute you have,
hold onto & cherish every second.
Have no regrets & never forget those that made you who you are.

i think another celebration will be a belated one on tuesday? KRIK?
i think so ah. because,yours truly is working on that day & want to take,
hours off from work so that i can spend time with my boy! hehehehehehehe.
3 years sure pass by very fast huh? in just a blink of an eye!!!
and the next thing you know,it's already 2010!!! OMGZ! so scary,right!

and i'm hooked to TWEET DECK! ZOMG! it's very3,addictive & NICE!
i keep changing colours,i keep on tweeting like nobody's business.. HEH!
it's like i'm tweeting & replying to tweets every second. heh! LAME.
twitter is really,really addictive! if you have thoughts like every second,
JUST BLAST IT OFF! hahahahahahahaha. i do that,everytime! ROFL.

Never be afraid to try something new,
because life gets boring when you stay within the limits
of what you already know.

(5:54 PM)

Saturday, July 11, 2009

on the other side.

Sometimes you just can't tell someone how you feel.
Not because you don't trust them, and you think they'll think you're weird,
but because you can never really find the right words to make them understand.

it's saturday,bitches!!!! yayyy! i am on my 2 days off on weekends! heee!
alhamdullilah,i am feeling better,i'm up and alive after being sick for 2 days! (:
vitamin c helps alot,trust me. right now,i think i need to take it regularly!
plus,exercise tooo! yeah,right. HAHAHAHAHAHA! *ROLLS EYES*

the boy is working today,it's 3 more days!! i am so mentel like that. heh.
i have already bought for him something,wrote the card,which only left with..
i have a big picture to print,a small cake to buy later,etc.. etc! hahahahaha.
it may be simple & it has to be celebrated earlier because we both,are busy!!!
right. so much for being busy eh? *ROFL* yes what! our schedules clashed!

Anything is possible.
Someone can tell you you have a 90% chance,
a 50% chance,or even a .0001% chance,
but if you don't try,if you don't fight,you get nothing.

right now,i am taking all my strength,my everything to make it happened.
i'm taking a risk here. i am going to need all the courage & support i have..
because,i,for one believe that i can do it. well,a bit. a little tiny one.
there's no point staying when people don't appreciate your hard work!
you slaved,you worked like hell & what did you get? NOTHING! ZILCH.
but the ones who get noticed are who? the bootlickers! the FAVORITES!
damn you all. i do not believe in sucking up like that. NO.

aniways,back to being normal & not angry. hahahahaha. i am insane,i know!
yesterday was certified,my most clumsiest day ever! wait,when i haven't been?!
hahaha. i am the clumsiest,silliest & dumbest ever! haaaarrr deeee haaaarrr!
well,today maybe watching fireworks from changi or east coast? haha.
i do not want to go to town without the boy. -_________-

Sometimes you need a breakdown.
One of those yell at everyone,cry until you fall and can’t breathe,
kind of breakdowns.Then you feel better.
And if you don’t,at least people will know your not okay.

(3:12 PM)

Thursday, July 9, 2009

not too far.

If you asked me a year ago, I would have told you what you wanted to hear.
Now, I know I can't please everyone, and I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings.
I can't make myself unhappy to please you, and I won't try.

it's thursday,my official off day. hahahaha. i am kurangajar like that. haha.
but tomorrow,is back to work,work,work! bluergh. it makes me puke. -__-
today was just me,spending quality time with myself & have some rest..
sigh,you don't know how good it felt to be lying down & doing NOTHING!
literally,just nothing!!! except,that my heart is just sore. )):

sigh. i am sighing,actually from just now till now & then. why,you ask?
do not ask me,for i have never had the answer to why i'm always sighing.
because maybe sometimes,sighing is just the only way to an answer..
right now,it feels like i have a heavy heart. something holding me back?
am i making the right decision? should i stay or should i go?

All the hardest, coldest people you meet,
were once as soft as water.
And that's the tragedy of living.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY,BABY!!!!!
you have turned yet,another year older.. hehehehehe. (:
do not be discouraged,because babe,you're going to be in the 20 state,
just like the rest of us.. enjoy your teenage years as much as you can!!
may your relationship with aliff last long till eternity kay? insyallah.
and may you be bless till ripe old age. i love you! <3

and to zara,if you ever come across here again.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
i know that you're now,having your daily updates at multiply,
& you may or may not come across here.. but hey,a wish is still a wish!
may you be blessed till ripe old age & that your relationship with sop,too.
the best wishes from me,babe! (:

Always tell someone how you feel.
Even if it's hard because opportunities,
are lost in the blink of an eye,
but regret can last for a lifetime.

(9:09 PM)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

heal the world.

People can tell you to keep your mouth shut,
but it doesn't stop you having your own opinions.
Even if people are still very young,
they shouldn't be prevented from saying what they think.

the second day of mc. god,am so bored but am recovering,alhamdullilah.
it got worst though,actually,when i watched MJ's memorial service on tv.
will have more on that,later part of today's entry. sodding sad. ):
i hate medicines,have i told you bunch lately? yes,i guess so.
and.... HURRAAAHHH! blogger has stop being an ass! hehehehehehe.

today part of the day was very heartbreaking. more on that on.. LJ! (:
well,at LJ,i got my certain part of privacy & only certain friends can view,
so yeah.. a girl needs her privacy right? everyone does need it.
worst come to worst,there's my little black book diary whom always,
accompany me in times of my sadness,my grieve,my happiness & everything.

I think that's what's wrong with the world;
no one says what they feel, they always hold it inside.
They're sad, but they don't cry. They're happy, but they don't sing or dance.
They're angry, but they don't scream. 'Cause if they do, they feel ashamed.
And that's the worst feeling in the world.
So everyone walks with their heads down and
no one sees how beautiful the sky really is.

Michael Jackson (1958-2009). RIP,my beloved MJ.
his legacy will live on,forever & forever & forever. it truly will.
no one can replace his music,his ways of entertainment,for he's truly a legend.
he's our king of pop whose achievement & music will never be forgotten.
because,no matter what the media said about him,i believed that,
he is his purest at heart & all he wanted to do was heal the world.

i really totally lost it when MJ's daughter,paris gave her part of speech,
during her late father's memorial service on national television,just now.
it pains me & i'm sure everyone who tuned in would feel the pain,hurt & grieve.
if not,i'm sorry you're so heartless. but it really does pain me to see.
and it makes me cry throughout the whole entire event after it started.
usher cried. everyone who gave a speech almost cried. i cried,too.
but,king of pop,you will live on in our hearts,forever. we love you,MJ.

But some emotions don't make a lot of noise.
It’s hard to hear pride. Caring is real faint like a heart beat
And pure love, why some days it's so quiet,
you don't even know it's there.

(7:34 PM)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

like a diamond.

Everybody screws up. It's what you do with the screw ups,

it's how you handle the experience.
That's what you should judge yourself by.

it's tuesday,it's supposed to be my working day & i'm down with fever. ):
my workplace has now very strict issues,meaning if you're SICK,DON'T COME!
haaaaaarrrr deeeee haarrrr ah! so,i don't come & spread disease loh.. heh!
the doctor was so persistent,keep asking me whether i traveled & so on forth.
have you been to any H1N1 affected countries? or in singapore? -____-
WHAT? singapore now has ang mo kio,pasir ris affected areas or WHAT?
SUMPAH TAK KELAKAR EH DOC!

i am here,listening to MJ's,"you're not alone." so sad. very sad. ))):
feeling2 blues & sentimental since i'm sick. hehehehe. no connection!
but the boy is now at work,not here. if not,he would pamper me!!!!
i know! i am so goddamn pampered like that. hehehehe. cannot help it.
sigh sigh sigh. i hate medicines. i hate it,really.

life's not a race,
live a little slower stop and hear the music,
before the song is over.

dear madee,seee? i'm sick because of you lahhh! hahahaha. joking,baby!
i miss you & i miss you,really. ): i know it's just yesterday,buttttt..... =/
i need you here in times of me,here,feeling sick. but you're working.
but it's okay.. i know you're checking up on me,every few seconds & minutes!
only to make sure,i eat my medicine & have proper rest. blueeks! =p
even though you're busy catching criminals & budak2 YP,hahahaha.
you do still have time to call your princess. (:

it's now,7 more days to our 3rd. i have no moolahs left to do anything special.
actually,we have planned to celebrate our 3rd at somewhere fancy & overnight.
but,due to the plan backfired,we will have a simple & a belated celebration..
because,this month,our schedule seems to clash.... sheeeeeshhhhh!
nah nah nah. we will have that celebration,be it belated or whatever!!

maybe some friendships aren’t meant to be saved.
maybe we’re meant to spend a certain part of our lives,
with certain people and then move on.

(11:39 AM)

Monday, July 6, 2009

always has been.

We were given two hands to hold, two legs to walk,
two eyes to see, two ears to listen,but why only one heart?
Because the other one,was given to someone for us to find.

blogger is still being such a bitch,what's new? grrrr. i feel like kicking it!
sigh. luckily,there's photobucket here which eventually saved me...
i hate seeing my blog without pictures,plain and very plain. sheesh.
aniways,enough complaining & whining about blogger,sucha waste of time!

i wonder when will blogger stop being such an ass & just be normal back?
it's making my life difficult and also,making it more fussier & lots more tedious.
that means,there's no me with uploading a bunch of pictures & whatnots,again.
sigh. sigh. SIGH!

until you value yourself, you won't value your time.
until you value your time, you will not do anything with it.

today,was just quality time with the boy watching dvds,munching,reading..
he has become much as a bookworm as yours truly,but he has his own taste!
he LOVES graphic novels,any kind of it & has a collection thanks to,yours truly!
he just almost finished reading pride & prejudice & zombies.. HAHAHAHA!
who would have thought that my boy is classic at heart? *laugh out loud.*
and he would read any kind,except fictions or chick flicks that is. =p

i just finished reading a novel just now,and onto the next one already! heh.
my bookshelf,has SOS me by trying to picture an almost worn out one.
it can tumble down anytime now,and i am really,really afraid. hahahahaha!
not because it would tumbled down on me,but afraid of damaging my BOOKS!
i need to buy a proper bookshelf at ikea, but no moolahs left... hee haww!

dear madee,thank you for a simple yet tender loving care day by you...
you know i simply loved simple,non fuss days,free of arguments with you. (:
it always will fall into place,i know. because we know it always does,has it?
and talking about the future with you,has always been simply delightful.
8 more days to 3 years & i still find myself deep in love with you. truly.
i love to reminisce those 3 years we had together,those good old days..
how you tried to win over me,how you "proposed" me to be your gf.
i still remember. always will. i love you,very much,babe.

life, is like a song. we know it's gotta end sometime or another,
but does that give us reason not to listen?

(9:52 PM)